Oh well everyone , back to point zero.
the last few days have been mysery for me, I've seeing cell like things floating in my eyes, had lots of pain also, so today I had to go to the hospital , for a recheck on my eyes.
when I arrived, I had to wait for a few minutes, and it was my turn my doctors did a check on my eyes, and they found something, I there seems to be an infection in both Virusses, and it all links to that unknown Mumps like virus I had.

they also found out that my Imune system isn't responding in a natural way, which is the main cause of the most of my infections and wierd unknown virusses.

I do get used to it sometimes, the doctors say I must not get too used to it because if there is a change in the infection I have to let them know and when you get used to things it will be hard to detect a change.

I will keep you all up to date if there is a change.

I have to take 6 drops per day 7days a week every 2 and a half hours, when I go to bed a cream has to be placed in my eyes to prevent them from drying out, I told the doctors that I rather be deaf than Blind, they said that blindness is not the issue yet.

Y=that mad me feel very unsure of thing, so afraid am I.

May the Force Be With Us, my friends.

Hmpf  :-/

I do hope they can finally sort this thing out, nothing is more bugging than an illness "pending" over your body.

If there's anything you need or anything I can do for you, just drop me a note !

thanx mate, I wish I could just use Force Heal and get over it, but a shame that isn't a possibillity.

over two weeks I will have more news. I will keep everyone up to date, though I am very scared and I just don't want to loose my mind, on what will of might happen.

You dont have much luck do you.  :(

The worst part is that nobody know what exactly
is wrong with you. So a cure will be very difficult
to find. I wish you all the best my friend, and I
sincerely hope they will come up with something
soon because this is taking very long now.

i wish you all the best...but i don't know what to say...

Gees Obi-Wan, i sure hope you get better quick buddy, try and stay positive thru it all.

thanx everyone, your support is indeed a positive feeling, so it does deos help alittle, every bit counts thanx, yeah the important thing is the doctors know that it's my Imune system not functioning the way it supposed to do , but to find a cure on that, dunno if that is possible, I now have medicine to slow down the process, just hope there is still acure, because this isn't a pleasant thing anymore.

but thanx for your support mates.

Friendly Regards,

Obi-Wan Kenobi.

Hope your mediclorion count is high and helps you through the illness! 8)

May the Force always be with you! ;)

We're all praying for a safe recovery! :D

well that's the problem if my Imune system doesn't cope properly it may take longer than suspected, but the doctors say that I do take the right Medication though, so there is some possitiveness in that, but thanx for your graceness :)

The Force is with all of us.

Well as I prommised, to tell you people if there was a change, well there is, my right eye started burning like hell.

also felt like a fire that wouldn't go out. So my mothered the Hospital, and I had to come immedietly, and yes the blood vessels is my right eye seemed to be expanding, there is a swelling in motion, and that causes the burning effects.

So I had two doctors to look at my eye because there was also a red bleached spot, and the croation doctor said that that is a new artifact in my eyes, they told me to use the droplets every hour and at tea time suppa or dinner as you may call it, I have to take some 600mg pain killers in to reverse the pain and the swelling.

does it ever stop, I've been going to the Hospital since Januari 26th 2005. My Immune system is still failing to work propperly, lets hope that this new method works otherwise there will be some nasty investigations :(

sometimes I just loose my mind cause of all this going on and so on.

May The Force Be With me this time, well kinda lost that too .

Get well soon, perhaps less time on the computer will help your eyes rest.

I hope you don't mind me making this Sticky for now, but I'm looking this Thread up every day and I don't like searching it among far less important Postings...

Get well soon mate and fight with all you got, never surrender to a hideous disease!

So many nice ppl in the 3dfx community ::)

Obi-Wan i was really feeling sorry for myself because of a problem of my own that inflicts me on a daily basis but after reading about what your going thru mine was so small, it came from nowhere about 3 months ago and the doctors thought it was something different causing it everytime i went, i looked the symptoms up on the internet and they had as much range as the doctors idea's, id have to say i was getting really pissed off and tired of the problem, it seemed to engulf my life so to speak, ive gone from working 60 hours a week to only an average of 32 for 3 months, and all of a sudden it went away 6 days ago, now it might come back i dont know but you cant ever give up hope that everything is gonna be ok someday. you seem like a really nice guy and i hope the best for you and a very fast recovery.

p.s. ill keep Vadar off your heals till you get back on your feet mate ;)

hay thanx FalconFly, Gary,Caravel and other 3dfx friends, it's really givin me some positive spirit.

though the burning hasn't stopped, I rang the doctor again, he said it could take two weekes before it may end, if there is no change I have to go for another inspection this upcomming Monday. The Painkillers well, they do make the burning less, but not so sure that they are working as they should do. They said that my computers won't harm my eyes, I normally use a Laptop with a 15.4"" WUXGA TFT :) that feels better that a CRT though, it was the doctors reccomendation to use my Laptop, cause of it's TFT.

I'll make a listing of my medical status later on the weekend. FalconFly I don't mind that you made this tiopic a sticky one.

Thanx everyone, you are all like a second familly to me sometimes, a fact is we care for each other, and that is also something I learned from you people.

May The Force Be With You All, and let's hope I get outta this wierd situation asap.

Friendly Regards,

Ben Kenobi.

You already know I'm also looking at this topic and whenever you need something or someone to talk to you know I'm 6 hours a day 7 days a week on MSN!

;)

Dear Obi-Wan,
i wish you a quick recovery from your illness. Think positive.

Regards,
Andreas

Thanx foor your warm and wishfull replies Luxkiller65 and Andreas :).

My next appointment will be upcom'n Wednesday, from there I will here my next instructions on what will happen and what I must do.

Regards,

Obi-Wan Kenobi.

Keep us updated. We are all concerned for you. We would like to know if you start feeling better long before your next doctor appointment.

Our prayers are with you.
Gamma742

P.S. When your better I have another D2 Level I think you'll enjoy ;)

thanx Gamma The Force is strong in this place I sense that, which is a good cause :) and a new level is always welcome, got the K6-2 500 runn'n back at 550Mhz., cause of stabillity probs.

oh well I will tell you all when my health state gets better, though the burning pain is abit less, must be because of the painkillers. ::)

And I hope that the upcoming Star Wars Episode III will make you happy! If you don't feel the Force in that movie, where will you ever feel It?

;D

Dear 3dfx friends from the German 3dfx community: FalconFly.de,

Here a new report on my status, Illness has struck and there is an unkown black spot in my left eye, this upcomming Wednesday I can go to the Hospital again for the 27th time to do a research on this spot, my illness is because the tension and the nerves.

My doctors say that my medication is extreemly important, now,  every hour I take droplets to brake down the infection, the red spot is disapearing, bt the unknown black scares me.

Could the black spot come from my failing immune system, well yes that is a possibillity, but if I stop takeing my medication blindness is a great danger, the wierd thing is my sight in my left eye is a abit blury with a white fase, So I don't think the medication  is working the way it should be, or it could be a fault of my Immune system.

After Wednesday I will come to know more, I am sc ared very frightend, sleeping , well sometimes I don't know if I'm sleeping or not.

But one thing this place and all of you in it will always have a place in my heart, I'm saying this now before, it's too late, sorry I sound so negative, but since Januari 26th 2005 I'm haveing wierd and unknown things and's now it feelslike my immune system is detearating, Let's hope there will be a light at the tunnels end.

May The Force Be With You, All Of You

General Obi-Wan Kenobi.

damn Obi-Wan, this really sux not knowing whats wrong with you, havent these doctors ever come across this before or at least something similar? a black spot on your eye from an infection? im gonna get on the net now and look this all up.

Obi-Wan  found some links of intrest, of course you seen most of them but here they are,
http://www.netdoctor.co.uk/ate/eyes/202321.html

www.mgh.harvard.edu/forum/VisualImpairmentsF/Ihaveablackspottoo..html]http://neuro-www.mgh.harvard.edu/forum/VisualImpairmentsF/Ihaveablackspottoo..html[/url]

http://www.nioeyes.com/eyes/care/qanda.htm


seems the black spot could just be a symptom of your infection, maybe that why every hour with the drops, i dont even know what im doing, just trying to help out. :'(

well there is some good well good news as I may call it.

My Doctors did say something that came across with your first link:

"It sounds very much to me as if you are experiencing "floaters" for the first time. You will be relieved to hear that these are very common and completely harmless and are not associated with glaucoma or any other ocular disorder. "

So afteral maybe then not that dangerous, he even said that it might go away, but not sure of that yet, I surely hope so.

Regards,

Obi-Wan Kenobi.

damn this all sounds so bad  :-/

hope you get back to normal healty fast and without any further problems man  :-[

Well if the infection gets under control the black spot might be nothing to worry about at all which is good news, i really need you around Obi-Wan as you havent posted the news article on your dino's for me yet ::)

Well thanx for the helpfull reaction everyone, I do have good news, the pain killers arn't needed anymore, and this wednesday I will go to the Hospital for another checkup, and if all is well the way it is now, I can take my droplets in every 2.5 hours instead every hour :D

Yes my friends, The Force Is With Me Again and let's hope it will stay this way.

Obi-Wan_Kenobi

How are you doing? I see you posting so I trust your eyes are getting better :)

great news Obi-Wan ::)

yeah the doctor said I can take it every 4.5 hours now, but I must be on time though still abit tense, anyways at least it's a slow progress of improvement. And now let's hope it wont go beserk again, but I thank everyone for thier great support :)

May The Force Be With Us All!

may the force be with you,
i notice u being missing for a while
as much as I've got a different life now on this side of the world.  :D

good health obi wan!

Thanx Edmund and all other FalconFly members, next week Wednesday I have to go back for a check up.

From there we shall see further on,  I still see those cell based thingies,, wierd stuff.

The Force and this place shall guide me a light though.

I've been to the Hospital, yesterday, and now I can take 3 droplets in both eyes per day, ay 09:00 AM , 15:00PM and 21:00 PM, within 2 weeks 2 times per day, that's at 09:00 AM and 21:00 PM :) and that for 2 weeks, after that another checkup. For me it's go'n quite fast all of a sudden, still strange at times.

Glad to see improvement, with a bit of luck you'll hopefully get rid of this annoying illness :)

good luck with the treatment  :)

bye  ;)

@ FalconFly,

yeah hopefully I will et better, the doctors did see a little improvement, but not a big improvement, I told them at least there is A Improvement, onwhich means we are on the right track. The Doctor replied with the same idea and I can come back within 4 weeks  :)

@ Gab

Thanx for your support as well, I've been go'n to the Hospital since Jan 26th 2005, the doctors said that my Illness started somewhere in mid 2004  :-/

@ Everyone else

I'll keep you up to date when there are changes, May The Force Be With Us All.

Friendly Regards,

Obi-Wan Kenobi.

Well my 3dfx friends, last week I've been to a special doctor and he said that I have floaters, though the red spots on my legs are to be uncertain, I told him if I had floaters the doctorsat the hospital would of told me, my blood seems to be okay.

after that I went to the Hospital for a 4 hour checkup and examination on what maybe the occurance of the wierd infections I have with me.

now a week later, I keep haveing frightening dreams
last night I dreamt that I was being opperated live in my stommach without anestessia [verdoving] they cut open my belly things like that with knives, I don;t under stand it anymore, I suppose I won't live long, I don't know it anymore, I feel drained, it feels like everything is just been sucked out of my life.

In the morning after that was this morning Iwas to affraid to look at my belly, I still though the cuts were there, they wern't ofcourse.

I feel life less, afraid to go to sleep, what's next, time wil tel lads, time will tell.

Did they recently put you on or change your medication? Certain meds can cause strange dreams.

Well I recieved mail from the Doctors and  they think I have the Besnier Boeck Disease

here more info of that disease:
http://www.xs4all.nl/~boeck/indexeng.html

From which explains the red spots and marks on my face and legs, the swolen Limfp glands, the infections in the eyes, the heavy kramps I get in my heart, painfull joints of my skelleton and the burnouts I have every once in a while.

But the Doctors only think this while they arn't sure, the red mark has gotten worse, so it's still very wierd.

Tomorrow I'll be go'n back to the Hospital check my eyes and December 7th 2005 @ 10:30 AM a series of X-rays and  possibly a second CAT-Scan.

If I know More I will let you know.

I won't forget to say a prayer for you on Sundays, hoping it'll get better!

I'm sorry for what's happening to you, I think if I don't say nothing it's better, words are useless but still be aware of this.

:-/

Yes I know, Oh well I will make the best of it, staying Possitive may sound easy, though I have no other choice to face the facts.

Quote:

Nobody will be fully cured from this disease, sometimes nature itself takes care of a relapse (remission) for some time. In this time you won't experience symptoms and can last a live time, when you are lucky enough.

Well looks like the best we can pray for is the symptoms to go away for a time.

Sorry to hear of the news.

well I've been for a checkup today at the Hospital's Eye Clinic, and the doctors say that my eye's are in stable condition and the possibilities of BBS are there, but still they arn't sure because I have some different aspects, so it's still unknown if  I do have BBS, and really to be honest , I'm not waiting for it.

Anywayz, October 7th a recheck on my eyes and December 7th a series of X-Rays and a second CAT Scan is planned but not secured.

well then you thought it was all over, but no today an emergency, my eyes were burning like if there was acid in them , so went to the medical clinnic for a checkup and yes it's back to day one.

the whole process can be started all over again, as you see i can't sleep of the stress and so on will this thing ever leave I'm not so sure, also some new unknown symptoms have occured redspots on my head and face dunno what to think what that may be, there will be controlled checkups weekly and now I must take the same medicine because there is no other 5 times a day, it's Liquid Pretnison and that's damn chemical finally after the last visit in November i was loosened from that stuff but now all the hell has returned from it's Darkened Hole. :'( :-[ :-/

I just feel hopeless now, as if will this ever go away or be solved which has left only desception and confusion in my mind, I'm gonna try and get some sleep, like the whole thing is mixxing in my mind, today was a bad day my comrades.

May The Force Be With me this time and let's hope that this "so called Thing" will leave me for good one day.

I will keep everyone updated.

Too bad to hear, was it as severe as before?
I really hope/wish u get better soon, and the doctors figure this thing out soon  :P
Kinda busy now g2g, keep in shape obi! ;)

I hope all will be well and the problem solved soon.

Best wishes, Gary

thanx for your kind regards well been to the doctor today and he has found a sort of lump like thing in my left leg so that has to be exmaninned at the Hospital next week Wednesday. Did scare me a bit's gonna be given an ecco and then hopefully it won't be much a threat it could be a new kind of symptom of the infection I have I hope I will get more answers I sense it's all going the wrong way and all back to day one.

I'll keep you all informed in one such way frightened I am my friends.  :-/ in the leads of dispair.

We love you obi youll be ok :D Hope things work out at the docters :D

Get Better

Obi, from all I've read it seems that the problem lies in weekened immune system. I was also quite sickly and every once in a while ended up in a hospital. That's past now, thanks to the mixture I got from my godfather.

Its for improving the immune system. Take the time and prepare it. It takes some time, but it pays off!

Here it is:

5 Lemons and 30 Stückchen garlic are needed as well as 1l water. A glass flask is also needed.

Peel the 30 particles of garlic and chop it in very, very small pieces. Put it in a cup with 1l water.
Take the lemons and wash them thoroughly. Don't peel them, but try only to scrub off the surface with a knife. (to remove the remaining dirt). Then chop them too in little cubes of 1cm x 1cm (or similar size) and place them in the cup along with the garlic. Put the cup on the stove and wait until the moment the first (smallest) bubbles come to surface.  Finally, take the cup off the stove and wait untill it cools down. Be sure to use this moment, for if you are late to take the cup off in time - all of the Vitamin C from lemons will be gone and the mixture will be rendered useless.

After it has cooled down, puddle the mixture and filtrate it into a glass flask. Make sure to puddle it hard, so that most of the juice is squeezed out of it.
The mixture should be drank every morning, before everything else. One tee-cup / day should suffice. It should  last some 20 days. After that - you will be safe from diseases for 6 months. When that time expires - make a new mixture for new 6 months.

And most important of all: belive in yourself, in your own force and in your own regenerative ability!

One other thing; a good excercise to eyes is to go out in woods, or somewhere where it's green all aroung and do the following: Focus your eyes on something close to you for a few sec, then focus them on something far away for a few moments. Repeat this until it gets too boring (some 5 min should do)...

Hope I didn't bore you all to death... I just hate when someone is not feeling good. Take care Obi and may you use your own force to get better!

Well My Friends we all thought it was over but I'm afraid that there has come a drastic change.


Last Wednesday August 19 2006 I had to do a MRI Scan and a MRI SCan in my situation normally takes 15 to 30 minutes.

my scan took about 94 Minutes, thereby you have to lay extremely still one move and the scan must be repeated.

So after about 75 minutes scanning they had to put some contrast fluid in my bloodvain, to make cleaer and sharper pics on what is going on, I asked why, the MRI Scanner opperator said I have to sorry it is extremely important.

I was like WTF now! been buisy since Jan 26 05 and now this, I told her oh well if you know what you are doing you must do what is best ofcourse, and she agreed and therefore proceeded.

15 mins later the scan was finally doen, normally you get the results right after the scan but she said  the following:

" Well Mr.Berrevoets, I am afraid you will have to wait 5 days for your results because it's kinda new and does not look that normal, what we did is scan both of your legs and compare both and the differences was very big."

So I was rather alarmed and still are, I sleep bad, still thanx to the 3dfx hobby and other things I try to keep my mind off the bad stuff but when you go to sleep all the crap returns.

Will this ever end, I'm not so sure anymore my friends, if something really bad happens I'm not sure what to expect for that, nor not willing for that TO happen.

It is time that this strange stuff leave me, it has taken too long allready and the symptoms are gett'n wierder day by day.

Thanx for your fast reply Jedi Master Thandor.

Meditate on this I will and yes to keep my mind buisy on other things is the best way to get around, but at night the problems do come back to mind, sleeping is kinda hard also.

Quote:

" Well Mr.Berrevoets, I am afraid you will have to wait 5 days for your results because it's kinda new and does not look that normal, what we did is scan both of your legs and compare both and the differences was very big."

I had an MRI once, as long as everything looks normal, the MRI Tech will tell you it looks normal. If he or she sees a something they will tell you nothing. They send it to the Doctor to determine the results and get back to you. It still may not be serious but the MRI Tech is not allowed to talk to you about it.

Try to stay busy and not dwell on it. And please let us know as soon as you hear from them. We're all praying for you ;)

As a friend and Jedi Master I will tell everything, it would be pointless to tell something else. :-/

But thank you everyone for your head's up, my depression still get's in the way sometimes :-[ , then by do'n thing's with my comrades and do'n teh 3dfx hobby again, they push that aside.

But when there has been a change I will let you Jedi Knight's know asap.

Well I'll have to blow my cover for this one...

Obi-Wan_Kenobi:  I wouldn't wish your illnesses on my worst enemy.  Though we've had differences in the past and I have had differences with the falconfly board, I sincerely wish you all the best and a speedy return to full health, and a happy life for the future.


Best Regards

caravel

Ok falconfly or donovan add this IP to your list as well.  ;)

thanx Caravel what has happened in the past remains as the past and that is what will stay we all have to move on :)

So norries at all there and thank you for your good words as a Jedi master a highly apprciate that very much. 8)

May The Force Be With You.. Always,

Jedi Master,
Obi-Wan Kenobi

@caravel aka beta

I see no reason to do that, friendly and supportive behaviour has never got anyone banned around here.

..beta is still alive,nice to see you :)

and to stay on topic,best wishes to Obi,my condition has improved already (got my voice back ;D),lets hope your will improve as well ;)

yeah thanx ps47 good to hear you recovered :) I suppose it was from all the excitement of the AGP5 project  :) yelling and screaming that it's such an succes  8)

Oh well I hope my status will improve too just haver to wait for the results and to be very honest the "waiting " is the worst thing around  :-/

Good to see my old ally ps47 still knocking around these halls (noticed the 3dfx help page is still there as well!).  :P

@Falconfly:  Thanks for not instantly nuking me off the board, I probably deserve it in view of my idiotic behaviour in the past.  I won't be back often as you've banned my other IP's, and I post from these ones (other location) seldom.  I probably don't have anything of any value to contribute anyway come to think of it. ::)

Regards


caravel

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oh well I rather keep this topic ontopic, we still have the this and that area for other things :)}

This Wednesday I will know more on my condition.

Well this morning I recieved the following results:

The Doctor said it's nothing like cancer and so on, it seem to be some type of internal bruising, but it is uncommon on how that happened, it's also an unlogical place to get that kind of thing.

The Doctor did mention that in maybe something unkown and it has nothing got to do with my BBS infection.

He said if it get's worse, make an appointment asap.
So the good news is it's nothing like cancer and so on the bad news is they don't know what it is it may be something new, so where does that leave my mind going, what directiction?

I'm not so sure now, are these results good or bad , well that is always the questio that remains to be answered in my mind, so it's still strange how it got there. :-/

If there are changes I will keep you all informed.

Don't worry Jedi Master... You are a Strong man and we are all with you... Whenever you need something...

May the force be with all of us... I wish you all the best!

Thanx for your kind words Max_R :)

Oh... You don't need to thank me...